yays and nays 23nov08

yoohooo!! remember me?

how have you guys been doing? my life was turned upside down about a month ago, and while i was sick, i lagged behind in so much school work and everything piled up like crazy, i had to get my priorities right and keep away from blogging for a little while.

although you have NO idea how many times i opened a new tab in my browser to start blogging, or to twitter, and had to force myself to close the tab because i knew once i started, i’d be on it for hours!!!

i’ve been away for so long. i’ve missed writing! thank you so much to those of you who have commented or emailed me personally in the last month or so. i know, i really meant to be back to blogging much earlier. but there’s only so little time to each day. i love blogging and will do this forever, but you know and i know, that blogging isn’t my first passion – fashion is! and that’s really what i have been doing.

yay!

this song has been ringing in my head for the last week! it’s just making me so happy.

“supercalifragilisticexpialidocious
even though the sound of it is something quite atrocious
if you say it loud enough, you’ll always sound precocious
supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!

um diddle diddle diddle um diddle ay
um diddle diddle diddle um diddle ay!!”

ain’t it so great? i’ve loved it as a child, and i still love it tons now.

i was watching “akeelah and the bee” on the telly last night, and this really had a huge impact on me:

our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. it is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. we ask ourselves, who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? actually, who are you not to be? you are a child of God. your playing small does not serve the world. there is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. we are all meant to shine, as children do. we were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. it’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. as we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

by marianne williamson

isn’t it beautiful? i think i want to write it out on some canvas and stick it up on my wall, as a constant reminder to myself.

i am currently working on a project with two good friends of mine from school, and it’s a secret and i can’t really say anything about it yet, but i can tell you that ever since we talked about it last week, it’s been giving me goosebumps and i am very excited about our prospects. i can’t wait to see it happen! i hope all goes well. there’s gonna be a lot of planning and thinking, and hopefully god will bless us with tons of luck!

the year is ending! isn’t that crazy? time goes by so fast! i’m looking forward to the end of this school semester. honestly i’m so tired and over it already!

having said that, we are currently making a jacket in school and i will have pictures up as soon as it is complete. it is going to be so damn magnificent. i’m not going to lie – i’m fucking excited about it. ahaha! can’t wait can’t wait!

i’ve been decorating my room recently. i know what you’re thinking – “didn’t she move in there like… a gazillion years ago?” yes, i did. i moved in here in march. but i just never had the time to really do much about it, so it has been a really boring, small little white box! i’m not done yet, nah-ah. i still have a ton of paintings i want to put up, and photos in pretty frames that i’ve been working on, and erm, whatever else that rocks my boat. i’ve put off this project for the longest time but since i started hanging things around my room a couple of weeks ago, it has put me in a tremendously good mood!

one side of my wall

the other side of the wall

covered my bloody ugly light (that came with the room) with lace!!

close up! isn't it so pretty? i love it so much now.

found this little darling and am still wondering where to hang it permanently.

painting my dresser!

yes, ladies and gentlemen, i have so many projects on my hands right now, i don’t know where to start.

nay!

nutella is the devil. i am quite convinced. i don’t mean that in an entire bad way. i mean, nutella is just so good. it’s so good that it’s bad. i haven’t had nutella for 5 years since i never found when i was living in japan. then a few weeks ago, i came across a jar of nutella in the supermarket. so i spread it thick on some british muffins. i hate you nutella. i am growing sideways and it’s all your fault.

my thanksgiving trip to tokyo is cancelled and i am currently moping at home. in the end, it boils down to the fact that i’m not a rich kid who gets everything she wants. the economy is bad and i cannot want everything. smap is having their concerts all over japan now, and for the first time in years, i am not there to see it. i feel like a part of me is cut away and i cannot even begin to describe to you how sad i am. the only saving grace is that i will be going to tokyo and hokkaido with my family at the end of the year. i think it has been at least 6 years since my whole family has gone on a vacation together. so it will be a time for me to spend with them, and to catch up with friends in tokyo. it will, however, be a smap-less trip.

i hate myself for getting sick and not completing several projects, the most important one being the sarrouel pants for my contest winners! i am so sorry, and the only excuse i can offer is this: i made them halfway and got sick, and my schoolwork piled up and i was in danger of failing my class. so i had to put everything to do with this blog away, and risk embarrassing myself in front of you guys. but it’s the thanksgiving holiday week, and i promise you they will get done and be on their way to you!

most of you know that i’ve been sick for a while. the stress just sort of piled high and i fainted. after fainting twice, i decided that something was wrong and i made a trip to the hospital and discovered how disgusting and germ-breeding new york hospitals are.

putting the 371927 hours of waiting i did in the hospital to good use – croquis!

yes, i have a million allergies.

i was put through multiple tests, and the results were that i was overstressed, and might have a blood clot in my lungs or a hole in my heart. i’m due for more tests… hopefully they will go alright! wish me luck!

till then, i promise to get back to each and every one of you who have emailed me in the last month. your emails have really warmed my heart and kept me going!

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